Doing vs. Being
You have a bias for action. That doesn't make you flawed, it makes you human. But, it is for this reason that you will naturally value accomplishment over character, result over method, and reward over sacrifice. It's not you, it's the world you live in.
No one consciously makes that choice. In fact, if asked most people would state that they value character over any result.
We just don't see it demonstrated very much...
It's not a lack of desire, it's a lack of focus. Learning to BE involves a conscious choice to focus on the nature of our character and let that lead to results.
When you focus on BEING first, doing happens naturally. When you focus on DOING you end up BEING something by accident and not intent.
As you think about the new year starting, who do you want to pursue BEING this year?